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(Past) Diary of a Psychic Medium
by Psychic Fairy's Resident Medium
LARA
About Lara
As a child, Lara knew she was different from other children. She was always very much aware that her vocation in life was to help people and knew that 'Spirits' would need her and help her to do this.
Lara could 'astral project' from the age of four and would astound family and friends with predictions and information relating to them.
It wasn't until years later however, after the death of her beloved daughter, Amber, at the tender age of nine months, that Lara took the spiritual side more seriously and dedicated all her spare time to helping others and eventually, along the path and teachings of being a Medium.
Lara's journey had begun and whilst producing five children (enough to keep anyone busy and grounded in the physical world!) she has tirelessly travelled and demonstrated her skills, successfully holding parties, private consultations and courses.
In a short time, Lara has achieved more than most, through an entire life and is proud to call herself One of Scotland's Best.
Wednesday 12th october 2005
Have a feeling that the today is going to be complicated. My youngest son,Luke, has fractured his arm and it appears that it has been there for 3
weeks -I know, I feel terrible. I knew that there was something wrong but his ADHD means he doesn't experience pain like my other children would.
My brother was getting cheesed off waiting for me, as i had promised to meet him for coffee like I do every day, and my clients (there were 2 of them )had to be re-booked due to my delay at the hospital. Mmm, there is something definitely afoot today!
Hi there, my name is LARA and I am a psychic /medium, mother of 10 (5 in spirit) so don't panic! The spirits are running amock today and real life, to
me, is often the difficult part -have you ever tried to live between the 2 worlds? Not easy. It's hard enough today, the full moon is approaching, my phones are on the blink, all my bulbs keep blowing and the kitchen design guy has turned up un-announced on the wrong day! Aah, great, the phones are back on!
It's 6.15 now, and maybe its not a good thing that the phones are on - my clients tonight have now expanded from 4-8 people and I couldn't say no!
I Have a strong feeling that one of them at least is going to be the recipient of a life-changing message and they really need me to communicate from a
loved one in spirit to them. I keep hearing a man talking to me called Richard and he insists his daughter is on her way tonight. Well, I'll keep
you up to date with that one.
Must go and hoover quickly and get my mind shifted. More next time. c ya!
LARA
Thursday 13th october 2005
As predicted, it was quite a night last night. I didn’t get finished until midnight and Richard, who had been talking to me from the day before, came back as expected!
The second last girl, who was 20 in one weeks’ time, was the recipient and it was her dad who died in a car accident. Why had he come back? Well, he was so excited because his daughter had just found out that she was pregnant!! He was ecstatic!! It was such a privilege to deliver that information and such a special moment to be part of-HER DAD KNEW OF THIS! I would never have accessed that sort of information on my own. I have to say, it did make up for the kind of day I had had, and put everything into perspective. Richard was so relieved to have got through to his daughter. There were tears all round and I was part of all that too-hankies at dawn or what!
I also had a girl who’s boyfriend had cheated on her with a married woman, another lady whom I had seen before and I had said that her son would leave his wife and within a year of this happening he would meet, marry and have a baby on the way with his new wife-phew! (Even I had thought this a bit far off!) But, guess what? Her son had left his wife, she’s now ex-wife, and he is married now with a baby on the way 12 months down the line. His mother is so happy and relieved because now her son is finally content and moving on and not bogged down with a terrible relationship. (Between you and I, however, the mother really didn’t like the old daughter-in-law so-everyone’s a winner!) Mmm, a good day at the office I think!
Today, however, has got off to a bit of a negative start. Talk about coming down to earth with a big bang! The FULL-MOON is coming up in a few days time, and I find that coming from a mainly male household who have their P.M.T. at this time (Pre Moon Tension) it’s not good! Emotionally and mentally, I feel a wee bit drained. I have been over-doing it recently and spirit have been telling me to ‘Calm it Janet’ as my eldest son would say! My hubby tells me I am a workaholic but I think its an addiction to helping people, or a compulsive thing that I don’t have a control over. The way I see it is that I have a job to do and the hours are long and non-negotiable but, boy, the job is rewarding! Take tonight, for instance. There I was, answering my emails from potential clients, and my mobile rang. I thought it was my son, but instead, it was a young girl who said that she found my son’s phone at the bus-stop on the wall. She had to get on the next bus, so she would switch it off and hide it in the bush nearest the bridge at stance no.4. Blimey, how many others would have been so honest? So there I was, in the dark rummaging around in a bush that probably could’ve had anything in-and there it was-the lost phone! (Actually, it used to be mine, but I gave it to my eldest son as every phone he bought, got pinched.)
My people always look after me, and anything else that belongs to me. So, I guess that means my phone too. After-all, It’s the 9th time it has gone missing!! So you see, it may sound a trivial thing, but these small things mount up. And what of the girl that phoned? I phoned the number that called and I was informed, from the lady that answered, that the only Stephanie (that was the name she gave) that she knew, was her baby who died a cot death at the age of 8 months. Now, what do you think….?
LARA
Saturday 15th October 2005
Well, last night, Friday, I had a party of people near Carlisle. I had tried for 24 hrs to find out if it was definitely on but the line was engaged every time I tried it. 3 hours before it was due to start, the lady phoned and said it was on, but there were only 4 people coming. Typical-I knew something was up as she hadn’t got back to me very quickly when I had left messages. I do 5-8 people most evenings, so to justify me going out to a party, I usually say I will come, if there are a minimum number of 7 people (10 being the maximum) This lady had waited until the last possible minute so that there would have been less time for me to re-organise the evening! I suggested that she came to me, and she dug her heals in, so I relented, and off I went. I don’t charge any more than I charge at home and I also had to spend money on a childminder and petrol not to mention the time it took me to get there and back- a true labour of love, don’t you think? Ooops…..
Sorry about that, my youngest son, the one with ADHD, has just switched the power off-thought I had lost all my diary as I was writing!
Anyway, apart from all that, the lady that held the party, gave strict instructions that no mediumship was to take place-just prediction. A really hard thing not to do considering the last client needed to hear from her aunt, who died under mysterious circumstances, and everyone in her family would’ve benefited from the communication. I had no choice but to give her my phone number and inform her that I would speak with her aunt during a private consultation with her at a different time and day suitable for herself and any other family member wishing to attend.
I have to ask myself at times ‘why me?’ and the reply ‘because you can and we have trained and educated you’ is often heard. It doesn’t make me feel any better during hard times and difficult situations though, does it? Who do I go to? Now, there’s a question and one I will save for another time…
LARA
Monday 17th October 2005
Well, it’s been a funny weekend, but today’s solar-eclipse should sort matters out tonight that’s for sure! I have been really emotional and watching ‘million dollar baby’ on Saturday evening didn’t help. Why can’t they make happy endings any more?
Anyway, Sunday evening brought me 3 lovely ladies to my door for both mediumship and prediction work and, in a way, I was kinda glad that I had the distraction. The reaction tells you quite a lot when you are in the process of communicating with spirit, and by that I mean whether it relates or not. Believe me, however, when I say that it is better doing readings in a studio because I can’t get distracted by there facial expressions and body language-a huge bonus! A lot of people think that we psyhics and mediums ‘feed’ from these but in truth, they usually put us off!!
You can probably tell that my mood is different today because I have had my fair share of religious * * * * thrown at me and it has been going on for 5 weeks now- in fact, for the last 8 years, if I am honest. What do you do if your son’s best friend is the son of a ‘Born Again Christian’? Well, of course, you try and get on with it. But, what do you do if their son pack’s his bags and lands on your doorstep the day he is 16 and declares he is moving-in? Tricky-eh? You wouldn’t believe what that boy had to put up with and the type of punishment she used on him. You see his dad died 2 years ago and he sees his dad, which is very much against the family’s religion. Instead of helping her son, she declares he is evil and of course, so am I, so can you imagine how she took the news that he was wanting to live with my family instead? (ever since the day I helped him and my son carve a pumpkin for hallowe’en, she has been down on me ever since and never forgiven me)
Well, somehow, I nurtured him for 2 weeks and persuaded him to go back home, after she forced her way into my home, scared my kids half to death, and assaulted my husband (you saw correctly). I had serious misgivings about doing this but she is his mother and instead of running away, he needs to face up to her-mmm? I know, I have asked my guides on many occasions if that was the right thing to do but they insisted it was-so, I am hanging in there. However, that has not stopped her phoning my home every weekend to find out if her son is with me as she can not track him down, and every weekend, I find her son for her. I have reasoned with him, counselled him and boosted his moral. I have listened to the mother, given her information, bitten my tongue when required, not to mention, sacrificing my Saturday evenings and Sunday mornings with this woman in the hope that I prove to her that I am not a bad person and she has judged me only on what she ‘THINKS’ I do. Interesting, isn’t it? Why do I do all this? Why do we mediums always have to prove our existence and justify our work when it was society that took our natural instincts away in the first place?
Funny thing is, she hides her nastiness only long enough for me to find her son and then she says that I need help and I work with the devil-can you believe it? When I confronted her and told her that if I was all that, why does she ask me to find her son and surely that the amount of time I have spent in this situation not to mention the patience I have shown and the help I have given her son, she should see by now, that I am a really decent person and not bad at all? What did she reply with-well, here’s the upsetting bit. She gave a really wicked, mad laugh and said that someday she may have a coffee with me-not. I was gutted to say the least, but most of all, I suddenly felt so sorry for her son. This boy, who had lost his father and could hear him talking to him, couldn’t tell the one person that should understand. He saw the bigger picture and he was being persecuted for it. If I thought she had crossed the line with me, what was it really like for him? My heart goes out to him, and for as long as it takes, I have to help. My work does not start and finish with my consultations. As you can see, it is a way of life and I have a duty to fulfil my destiny. It does make you realise, though, just how different we all are…
Friday 21st October 2005
Sorry, I have not written for a few days, phew-it’s been hectic! My children are on holiday from school this week and we have tried Horse–riding with 2 of them (had to travel 96 miles round trip just to get there though). Apparently, riding-schools are closing down left right and centre these days due to the high insurances. Surely people that book lessons expect that somewhere along the line, you are going to fall off and hurt yourself? I could understand it if it was a professional interest, after-all, I used to ride race-horses for a profession and I had terrible trouble getting insurance cover. It was just in-case that I fell, or got thrown, and was paralysed as a result. Considering that I broke my collar bone, my hand and tore the ligaments in my left knee, not to mention the scar around my neck from where a mad horse had grabbed me with their teeth and pinned me to the floor(yip, was really scary all right) I would never have dreamed of claiming unless it was really necessary. What are things coming to when these riding-schools are closing as a result of people claiming for every little thing that the end product of which means that our kids have to now travel huge distances to get that pleasure only animals can show? It has been proven that animals help to calm a child and increase intellect. After all, could it be that we are working against ourselves?
I have also received a lot of really interesting emails and phone-calls from people needing help and guidance in spiritual matters. One lady was in an awful state as her mum and dad were moving back to south Africa, she herself has horrendous health problems and her only son lives in London and she wouldn’t leave him to go back to south Africa. She is entirely on her own. I have also dealt with 3 lady’s who are experiencing weird happenings around them and are seeing spirit people too. They really needed someone to tell them that they were not mad and the people they were seeing were real. My husband goes mad, though, at the time I spend with everybody as he doesn’t understand the huge work and responsibility involved with this profession. There has been many an occasion spent on the phone or in person trying to guide others and re-assuring them when they need it and my poor hubby has been quietly fuming in front of the telly because I had promised a quiet night together!
Mind you, probably on a more practical note, he has a point at times. I have no form of other income to pay the bills and I rely totally on what I make with my consultations. A lot of work that I do receives no payment at all and this can be time-consuming, so understandably, this can cause friction within the home. It is not for what I do, but the time involved in doing it for what I charge but still people think that I live on fresh air! However, how do you distinguish from someone who should pay from someone who shouldn’t? I had a man phone me last week to ask me loads of questions. He phoned me from a mobile and spoke for 5 minutes then panicked as he was running out of credit and asked for me to phone him back-so I did. 47mins later and the fact that it was on my phone bill did nothing to reassure my husband that they needed my advice when they were not paying towards my phone bill! (and considering that my last 3 bills on my ‘psychic’ phone line came to in excess of £500!) I think he may have a point. Oh, and did I also tell you it was meant to be my night-off also….
So you see, its not easy balancing the work with the help and trying to make ends meet at the same time. Having said that, I love my work, am good at it and am good with people. It also comes with huge rewards in other ways and I feel that I am making a difference in this difficult and often twisted world…now, what’s for tea…?
October 2005
Monday 24th October 2005
It’s been a funny weekend. I fell asleep on Saturday and missed ‘Afterlife’ and was ever so grateful that I taped it!
I have practically cried throughout this series as it is so true to life and, finally, television is portraying our mediumship more seriously-even if it is a drama. Don’t you just wish that they made more of this, like instead of 6 parts, thay would do 60!!
So, on Sunday, I watched it and understood the whole issue of being spurned by society and others finding reasons not to believe in what we do. Believe you me, if I had a pound for every time someone tried to discredit me, I would be very wealthy. Why is it that we have to prove our beliefs and sense of spirituality, yet other religions aren’t? (answers on a postcard please!)
I have even had so-called Christian people sending me letters and phoning me up, telling me that it was my fault and a direct result of what I do, that my daughter (no.1) died-can you believe that? Christians or cruelty?
Later on that morning, though, I got a phone call from a lady that often comes to see me as she finds that contact with her dearly departed husband, very re-assuring and comforting. I had not see her for a while and was wondering if she was alright, so it was funny how she phoned me that day. I was due to be on platform in Glasgow that evening and normally I would’ve saved myself for then, but I couldn’t turn my back on her. Needless to say, my hubby wasn’t chuffed as it was a family day, but this is the dilemma that we mediums have constantly, and I am who I am because of them.
So, I met her. Imagine my surprise when I discovered through her husband in spirit that he was not alone and a young man had joined him. This young man had been murdered recently and gave me a blow-by-blow account of his passing and who had done it. The right man was behind bars and the man who was murdered, was due to be cremated the next day. He needed to let his aunt know that he was ok and to pass that message on to his young family. Well, no-one could say that I had anticipated that as I always have an open mind with these things. The real twist was that Alan, who was the guy in spirit, informed me that there were 2 people involved, the other person being a female. The name he gave was a very unusual nickname, but it was a nickname I remembered from a party I had done in the past and a piece of information that I gave this woman, which warned of these events and to avoid being implicated at all costs. She obviously didn’t. Apparently she fell in love and as they say, love is blind. My heart went out to her and this man in spirit-they are both paying a price now.
Sunday 30th October 2005
Do you ever get the feeling that the week ahead is going to be nothing but trouble? I woke up this morning and for some reason, and not because the rain has not stopped falling and the river has flooded the other side, I feel quite down. This usually happens when I have been over-doing it with my consultations and the work piles up elsewhere. To put it bluntly, its been like shovelling snow this past week. My eldest son, has not been coming in when asked and I have been sat up night after night worrying myself sick about him. He has ‘conduct disorder’ due to undiagnosed ADD and is such a stress its not funny at times. He is also very sensitive, funny, loving and PSYCHIC. He used to come with me when i did parties and we would play mind games in the car like- I would think of a number between 1 and 50 and he would tell me what it was. We would do that with colours too but the thing that scared him off was at one party, he actually saw a glass of wine levitate and hover then throw its contents over one of the women. Talk about a ‘spirit’ needing to make contact!! Haha! My son is a Pisces and is typical in every sense. One day, I hope that he will use his gift to help others, but until then-phew! He’s hard work!!
You know, because of what I do, people often look at me and think life is so rosy. (it just shows what make-up can do!) and yes, I am really good at sorting other people’s problems-but as for my own at times, I often have nothing else left for me. My Nan’s anniversary is coming up on the 23rd December(she will have been gone a year then) and I really miss her. She always supported me, whatever I did, and the physical missing her, makes me sad. I’m sure you all know what I am talking about.
To cap it off, my period started 5 days early and I bent down to put the plug in to hoover and….click, did I not do my back in as well? Honestly, talk about embarrassing!! Do I get any sympathy? You guessed it…NO!
I realised then that when you always look like you are a like life is great, and something goes wrong, it does not cross everyones’ mind that you have off days as well and everything is not rosy all the time.
But, every day does have a highlight and for me, getting an email from the lady who’s party I did on Friday, thanking me for coming and going over the highlights of the evening, is both re-assuring and makes me realise that although life can get very difficult at times, every cloud has a silver lining. Tomorrow, 31st October, the PARANORMAL MAGAZINE is launched and I am their FACE-READER in it and I am so excited. I am so lucky to be doing something like this that, at times,I have to pinch myself! Well, its something to put in the scrap-book and show the grand-children 20 years down the line, isn’t it?!
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